vendredi 8 novembre 2013

Both Sides of Sorrow

Same as Fairy Dreams, I wrote this song long ago. I've composed the music but not recorded it yet. Both Sides of Sorrow is a duet between an orphan and a woman despaired to have no children.
The chorus, compared to the verses, is very short, and on the sheet music I've written it differently every time. First the two voices are clearly independant, then they alternate in some sort of cannon, and at the end they sing the same thing together.

Both Sides of Sorrow

Child’s words
Mother’s words
Both
My mother went, left me behind
She was so sweet, lovely and kind
She's all I got and forsook me
They say she went on a journey
But never answer when I ask
Where she is or when she comes back
My mother left
And I’m waiting, waiting, waiting…

I want to give birth to a child
So long I've hoped so hard I've tried
I've prayed God and my lucky stars
To hold my baby in my arms
But nothing comes, and I'm worn out
Month after month time's running out
I am worn out
Nights of waking...

Waking, waking, waking…
And I'm waiting, waiting…
Oh, Lord !
Giet her back if it's true
That orphans find mercy in you !
Lord, listen to my cry
Give me children, or else I die!

They said I needed to be brave
The day they took me to the grave
And then I was finally told
The harsh truth I had to behold
That she's never gonna return
That she watches me from heaven
I cannot hold
Her ghost waning, waning, waning…

I'm addressing the physician
As I'm growing the suspicion
That something's wrong in my body
I’ll never expect a baby
My plans are all falling apart
Oh I wanted a child so hard
So very hard
And I'm weeping…

Weeping, weeping, weeping…
Her ghost waning, waning…
Oh Lord !
Get her back if it's true
Lord, listen to my cry
That orphans find mercy in you !
Give me children, or else I die!

I've spent tens or hundreds or so
Hours sitting at the window
Because they had thought, the grown-ups
From their big height and experience
Poor kid is too young to bereave
And it's easier to deceive
At the window
Time spent wishing, wishing, wishing...

When the doctor told me my fate
How much more bitter could it taste ?
There must be shreds of hope to find
And yet today none comes to mind
All I can see is my future
Scattered by meaningless figures
Oh, the future
I was weaving…

Weaving, weaving, weaving…
Time spent wishing, wishing…
Oh Lord !
Get her back if it's true
Lord, listen to my cry
That orphans find mercy in you !
Give me children, or else I die!

They gave me to the orphanage
It is no home more like a cage
There must be children out there (There are children there)
Who would need my love and my care (Who need love and care)
We're facing the same wall of woe (Facing a wall of woe)
On both sides of the same sorrow
If I can make it go
Then I'm willing...
Willing, willing…
Oh Lord !
Bring us together if it's true
That orphans find mercy in you !